Chapter 396
“Why?” Jasmine asked. “Why did you change your mind.”
“I saw what it did to you yesterday.” He said. “I was wrong and I had no right to do that. If you want the child then you can keep it.”
She hovered, unsure of what to say.
He had said something entirely different and now he said another.
It made no sense.
She looked around uncertainly.
“Did you bring the nanny so she can steal my baby?” Jasmine asked.
“Of course not. How did that even cross your mind?” He asked.
She gave a light shrug.
“That’s low.” He said. “If I was going to do something, I would tell you, not sabotage you.”
“I don’t know you.” She stated matter of fact. “And I don’t trust you.”
He seemed taken aback by that statement.
He regained his composure. “I’m only doing what’s best for you and the baby. I won’t take him from you.”
She felt an air of relief.
Despite the horrid things he had said, she was now able to believe him.
She nodded. “Thank you.”
And then he turned away.
“Wait.” She stopped him. “What’s going to happen to Lily as your mate? What’s also going to happen after I give birth?”
He was quiet for a while.
“What would you like?” He asked, surprising her.
He had never really asked her for her opinion on anything.
And this very well surprised her.
“Is this a joke?” She asked surprising herself.
“No it isn’t.” He said. “Tell me what you want.”
She thought really hard.
What did she want? What did she actually want?
She touched her belly and looked down on it.
In truth, she wanted her baby to have a life where she never lacked.
Where she had the most beautiful dresses, never had to work the way she did, never suffered, never starved.
She wanted her child to have everything she didn’t.
She wanted her child to have love.
She had never experienced love from her mother or a father.
She wanted her daughter to experience Both.
And then she thought of Lily.
If Lily was honestly as kind as she portrayed herself to be, then she would be a good mother.
Together along with Xaden, if he was a good father to her child, they would have both been good parents.
But she didn’t trust them.
Not in the least bit.
She didn’t trust anyone at all. Except Fiona and perhaps Erik.
Loren too.
But that was it.
In truth, she wanted her child to grow up with a loving family.
She wanted her child to have a mother and father and for all three of them to live together.
She would have loved to raise her baby together with Xaden as both loving parents, but she knew that would never happen.
It was a wild dream in her head.
So if she was going to be honest to his question, that was what she truly wanted.
But he was never ever going to give her that.
She let in a sigh of relief.
“I would have liked to leave the pack with my baby, but I know how much you fear us being used against you by your enemies. I wouldn’t want anything to trigger your past.”
She cleared her throat. “I didn’t know that that was why you never wanted to have children. Your past, what you had to live through. I’m sorry about it. If I had known and if there was a way I could have prevented having this baby, I would have done it.”
“But it’s here now. I won’t leave the pack either and prevent you from being in the life of this little one. I want you to experience it and I want you to be there for her.” She further explained. “Which is why I would like to stay here in the pack. You can also keep an eye on the both of us. No one would defy you from within the pack and I believe we would be much safer here than outside anywhere else. I also don’t want to be a slave anymore. I’ll like to gain my freedom. I know it’s too much to ask for. But I wouldn’t want my child being raised in atmosphere where I am a slave. The way my mum gave birth to me as one. The same way you don’t want afflictions from your past to haunt you, is the same way I don’t too.”
He said nothing so she confused.
“I would also like to withdraw from the job you gave me as head house keeper. It’s a job for Lily or your sister. Not me. If I could get something else doing so I can earn some money. I would appreciate it.”
He said nothing for a while and she began to feel shame and instant regret at being honest with him.
“But if you can’t do this so unde-
“Everything you have asked for would be given to you.” Xaden promised.
Jasmine felt her stomach twist in a knot.
She hasn’t expected him to agree.
“Thank you.” She said.
“Is that all?” He asked her.
“Yes please. One more thing.” She stated. “I’m not comfortable with this room either. Can I go to something smaller.”
“This is the safest room.” He said. “No one can come in unless they go past the guards.”
“I understand that. But it’s just. Different and uncomfortable for me. Anna doesn’t like it. And I don’t either.” She expressed. “If I could please get something else?”
“Would you then come to my bedroom?” He asked.
She flushed red.
“Excuse me?” She said without thinking. “W.. wh… what? I c… can’t do that.”
“It’s the only other place I know that I will be able to keep an eye on you. No one would harm you.” He stated reasonably.
She itched the back of her hair unsure of what to say.
“So would you be staying in my room or here?” He asked.